Thursday, March 30, 2006
Good luck MJC Squashers.
Tomorrow commences the start of the Nationals! haha. Let's go mj let's go!!
GIRLS, HIT IT LIKE U MEAN IT!
gooooo allllllll outttttttt! WOOTS.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:32 PM
9:32 PM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
i've been neglecting my blog. sorry guys. =(
well, i had just survived a series of block tests. i dunno if i really meant that survived it or not cos results are not totally released yet. but, compared to my best friends in class, i'm lagging WAYY behind. trying to catch up to them. okay, so blame it on cca. heck, stop finding excuses. it's so not because of my squashing that caused me to be in this plight. squash training didn't continue for a week before the block tests aka march holidays. at that time, before the tests i never thought of the consequences. how i would feel after it all happened. now, when i get back my results. i know that things are not going the way i want it to. and it's mostly my fault. (maybe except for GP! a disappointment.)
yup this is only a block test you say. however, why is it that people can pass? my sectionB and C was a disaster. (36% and 22%!) i also dunno what happened.. =/ to think that, with the mcq (that i got a B for) would pull my results up, i was wrong. hahah.. sad huh.. =p
i'm not lookin forward to the following days of the week. it's gonna be worse. econs, math. i had the highest expectations for chem. as in i put in the most effort for it, though it might not be very much. i've already told my mum that she would most probably have to come down for meet-the-parents. hais.
i really love my friends. but sometimes, on few occasions, i feel really lousy and sucky around them. i know everyone has his or her weaknesses. but around them, makes me think that i have little strong points. =( damn i know i shouldn't compare cos everyone's different. but, it doesn't make me feel good being the lousiest in everything!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:55 PM
7:55 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
before i start off, i just wanna wish my dear
socks a HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!just to spice things up in my blog, i've changed my font colour! haha..alright. settled on a colour alr.
many people are getting frustrated with school work and not being able to score during tests. i'm so disappointed with myself. i can't even finish revision exercises which were given so long ago. why do i always get disheartened easily when i fail to work out the answer? i wanna blog happy things but i cannot seem to find anything. sorry all. sometimes i just hope that things will work out the way i want it to be. like i've always wanted my brother to be in mj together with me, he was so close. 13 points, i never expected that from him. i was SOOO happy and excited because he made it! he could be posted to mjc! just when i saw a glimmer of hope, mj had to lower their entry point to 12. thus, he got posted to tpjc. seriously, i was very upset and i'm still tryin to accept the fact that his appeal had not gone smoothly. him coming to mj was something i had looked forward to since last year. and now, it's not happening.
it's the GP test tmr. somehow, there's something in me that's causing me to feel nervous. perhaps it's due to the fact that i dun wanna do badly anymore. haha.. gp what. u can't help it. or rather in my case, it's either u pass border line or fail. shit la. i'm so scared. haha..
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:27 PM
8:27 PM
Saturday, March 11, 2006
i'm in a chatty mood now, but there's no one on msn to speak to. bahh. blog lor. that makes 2 entries in a day. and no new taggies.
hmm, i was on the verge of going into the topic about relationships in my previous post, which concerns my dear girl. haha. from my perspective, a person who has little experience in relationships, i cannot comment on much. because i don't understand why certain things take place. why is it that someone who's in love is blind or oblivious to many things? aiyo, i was quite affected by steph's words, u should go into a relationship then you'll understand such things. wah quite sad sia. i'm unable to comprehend complicated relationships. in fact, i've never been blinded before. so maybe i was never been in love. lol.. i cannot offer useful advise to people around me. haha.. oh ya, i'm not unhappy with steph's saying. it just sparked off something in me.
there is so much i wanna to say. but i dunno how to put it across. lol. i dun wan people to see me as a pathetic little thing who's all lost and confused. actually, i simply felt that i needed to blog about relationships. i bet steph is torn between 2 guys and having to make a decision that will affect her life for the next half of the year at least. it's a good thing i dun have to go through these but i think i'm not maturing as fast as she is at the rate she's progressing. lol.. perhaps this process will grind teens into becoming a matured and sensible young adults. (good at handling affairs of the heart.) cos certain things can be taught by experience, and that alone. maybe my thinking will appear to be shallow in the near future. =/
i've yet to find someone i'm comfortable with? haha. cross my path NOW! (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:13 PM
11:13 PM
today i went for the nus and smu open house.
surprisingly i met people i never thought i'd meet. like my ex classmate zhengxun whom i've not seen in AGES. and some special person. (:
well, i was pretty tired because apparently squashers had to be at MGS, 7.25am for a referee course. yeah, so most of us woke up at around 6. ended up being half zombies for the rest of the day.
(fast forward to the highlights) i forgot to bring my wallet today! u guys must be thinking, how can this idiot forget to bring her wallet and if so, how did she get to her destination in the morning. the answer is, my dad sent me there so it didn't occur to me *at that time* that i had to bring my wallet. haha! i'm such a dumbass at times.
luckily my dad had to make another trip down so he brought my wallet and delivered it to me. thanks dad! (:
i had a splitting headache for the rest of the day, no idea why. couldn't concentrate. it felt really horrible though. my head was gonna break into 2 pieces. =/ probably due to fatigue.
thanks steph and su han for taking turns to accompany me for the whole day! haha. =D
whoa, the next highlight is very highlighted. hahaha. i experienced something that i haven't before. heh, that doesn't sound rite. but, i saw a bouquet of 99 roses today!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG. it's so expensive. hahaha. this is my first time seeing 99 roses in real life ok and it belongs to my friend. =x anyway, it turned many heads, not only mine. seriously, MANY MANY heads turned and looked. no, it's wrong. not looked. it's STARED. hahaha. so cool. well, i was walking with them and i'm the extra. bah. it was fun nevertheless. (:
ha. it'll be so cool if i could receive roses on my birthday! whoa. cool sia. k, confirm got ppl say i'm biatching again. but i'm kinda deprived or rather let my imagination run wild so let me rant can. thanks.
hmm, girl ah! my honest opinion is.. afterall, it's your decision. think it over carefully. (though the roses *to put it in ur own words* is very big in size ah, very heavy and nice to admire! don't feel obligated to agree to anythin just because of the things he has done for u. this kinda feeling is something you cannot have control over. if u don't have it then reject lorrr. haha. =D
block test in a week. good luck all! mug ur guts out. haha..
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:52 PM
10:52 PM
Friday, March 10, 2006
my mum and bro just went to my school to make an appeal. but obviously, it was a failed attempt to do so. i feel so (!&#(^#&$()!*_ now. i'm on the verge of spewing vulgarities already. forgive me la, i'm feeling so useless and i wish that i could have done more. darn. =/
iseenopointinblogging. i'dratherbeslackinginacornerwatchingtele.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JASES!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 6:19 PM
6:19 PM
Monday, March 06, 2006
the squash team (err. some people laa.) got all time low grades for our tests in j2. single digits. lol.. bahh!! how!? this is freaky rite. =/
10% for math!? like wth. haha, while i'm trying to convince myself that it was due to my calculator being in radian mode instead of degree, i don't think it's v comforting. dunno if it's possible to pull myself out of this. afterall, i heard from friends that it's your mentality towards achieving your goals that matter the most. if u keep on thinking that u're bound to fail then you are.
oh yeah, today i played 2 games with mr aaron tan. 9-3 and 9-4. heh!! yea, i feel the pressure.
ciao gotta do work, math econ and chem stuff.
working towards my goals.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:06 PM
10:06 PM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
i woke up early this morning to play squash with peimun and limian.
after playing for quite sometime, i went home for lunch and then attempted to complete the case study which i cannot understand. anyway, it's still left uncompleted on my desk. darn. i dozed off while tryin to crap up some info for the case study and slept till 4.30pm. haha. apparently darren came and passed my bro some anime to watch. hmm, i caught up on naruto till episode 166. there's until 174. haha. the storyline is (as usual) very slow paced. boring siaa.
i spent the whole of friday watching angelic layer. haha. 26 episodes long and i finished it in a day. they ended the series in a weird and incomplete way, i didn't quite like it. but overall the anime had interesting bits here and there. (i watched the anime for the cute guys in the series. haha..) okay, there's Girl A (main character), Girl B, Boy A, Boy B, Boy B's brother and Girl A's mother. *takes a deep breath. Girl B likes Boy A but Boy A likes Girl A but Girl A likes Boy B. and Boy B likes Girl A's mother. LOL. though she's like older than Boy B by a decade. in the end, Girl B got Boy A to like her, Girl A got Boy B to like her and Boy B's brother fell in love with Girl A's mother and vice versa. (actually this looks like a very tough primary school math question. =x) IMAGINE. if Boy B's brother married Girl A's mother, Boy B would then be Girl A's uncle!!! lol. if they got together, won't it be niece and uncle relationship. hahahaha.. damn complicated rite. but Boy B is damn kawaii!! lol. actually Boy A also laa. muahaha. thus my conclusion, anime guys look cute.
2 weeks to bloc test! jiayou all! (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:07 AM
12:07 AM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
i'm squash-ed the way i did last year today.
haha so shiok!!!! cos we (the mj squash team) used to train in school and then continue training till 10 at night at EG courts. (Elias Green, my place) those were the days, we were still slackers with the will and determination to squash well. it felt good. now, we've become dehumanised, tools for studying. very soon the squash competition will come and we will try to play our way through to the top 3 positions in grouping.
after that, we'll have to mug for our A's which would determine where we're headed and what lies in stored for us in future. speaking of the A's, the release of the A's was on wednesday, 1st march. we, the mj j2s, were forced to sit in the briefing of the results. the atmosphere was already so intense, despite the fact that we weren't even gettin our results that day. we felt the nervousness and tension our seniors were goin through. haha. and somehow or rather, ms lai successfully motivated us in studying hard for the A's, starting from now. we dun wanna have any regrets when we receive that piece of paper. i wan straight As or AAB. i really hope. and i know i've to work towards it!
btw, i got c5 for chinese. can drop already. yeah! haha. (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:47 PM
11:47 PM
